It took me a lot of guts to come on here and tell you everything that has happen. If you don’t know by now, this is Ji-Ni, Vicki’s cousin. It hurts so bad to write this especially since she called me her favorite cousin in the past entry.
By the sound of this, you already know that something has happen to our beloved Victoria. If you don’t know what was going on with her pregnancy and only have a few small details, then I will try to fill in as much as possible in this entry.
As you all know, Victoria was having complications with her pregnancy from the beginning. The months passed, and some of the problems went away over time. Soon, she learned that she wouldn’t have lived if she went full-term, since she was so small and gained weight slowly. She also learned that if the doctors educed her labor at 6 months, then there would be a chance that she would live; however, her baby girl would be in INCU until she fully developed…that’s if, she lived. Vicki wanted to go full-term, even though she knew that she had no chance to make it through the labor process. But she didn’t care; she wanted to hold her little girl in her arms once. Eventually, Ethan talked her out of it and went in last month to have the doctors educe her labor.
I am sorry to inform all of you, her friends, the people that took your time to read her Xanga, and anyone else she has came in contact with, that she died during the process. She lost a great amount of blood, and for some reason, the doctors couldn’t stop my cousin from bleeding to death. And I hate them for that. They should have been ready for anything, they knew my cousin’s condition…how fragile it was…but yet, they weren’t.
Not only did I lose a great cousin…a beautiful unni…but her daughter didn’t even make it. Nae-Yi (what she named her daughter) didn’t take one breath of air after she was pulled away from her mother. Ethan…he’s taking it the worst, and I’m scared of what he may do to himself in the future. I’m scared what my whole family will do in the future. Our lives have collapsed around us, and there is nothing that we can do. Nothing.
But, I know that Vicki is up in heaven rocking her sweet little girl to sleep and telling her family and friends not to worry about her. That she’s fine, that she’s happy that the suffering has ended. I love you so much unni…so much that I never had the chance to tell you until you were lying on your deathbed. And I pray that you are so happy right now.
You were my favorite cousin also, and you will always be. And I will continue to look up to you, as my model and as my guardian angel in the sky.
---Ji-Ni | 
